i see you good you forced faker

it's very interesting when there are certain individuals, we will call them vultures, claim to be your friend. in my opinion, a friend looks out for the well being of the one with whom they are be-friend-ed. now to be fair, i understand the different levels of friendship. there are those with whom you see everyday and don't necessarily have the time to hang out with. there are those that live far distances so really that friendship is mainly a friend/internet connection, but still a friendship. but then there are those with whom you frequent their houses and go to dinners with. those in my opinion would be the 'closer' or 'closest' of friends, because you not only speak with them routinely but you also interact with them on many levels. so i find it interesting when they clearly don't give a shit about anything other than themselves. when there are events (such as weddings, parties, etc.) that are pre-planned and pre-committed to attending and decide that not going and not saying that they aren't going would be more appropriate instead. it hurts most because all of that time and effort was lost. it is time that will never be given back, only instead it's time wasted. i think that's the worst feeling in the world, having to realize at the end of the day that the one person you have tried to grow and bond with never cared in the first place and only took advantage of it out of convenience. i guess if i were that alone i might do it too, but them again i have feelings. those with whom i interact with and those with whom i choose to carry on a relationship with are out of seeing a common link or bond, and a general sense of enjoyment. those with whom i interact with touch my life in some way, that's why there are only a select few that i let in. i think that's what hurts the most, giving that other person an idea of who you are and them purposely squashing your hopes and expecatations because there was 'something better' going on. vultures don't make sacrifices.

at the end of the day, come Saturday i will be getting married to the love of my life and starting a family. so i can only say that i hope it will be worth it for the other person to slowly realize what happened--that is if they even care.

"if you see me keep going be a pass by waver."