one can only hope

As I am settling into my 'new life' so to speak, it's awesome that gas prices are falling and the snow is starting to roll in. The one thing however that I can't stomach is the crazy bail out and how it's supposed to help the American people... especially the auto industry. I have a strong feeling that no matter how much the CEO's of corporate America fuck up (that big one of taking private jets to meet Congress for the vote comes to mind) that they are still going to get butt loads of money. I don't know how many have been keeping up on it, but this morning I heard a press statement from a gentleman saying 'what were they expecting us to do, drive?' Uhh of course dumbass... or maybe fly commercial if it's that important to get there by air. It's interesting how they are saying their businesses are going under but yet they have private jets!! Who the hell thinks is going to pay for them? Oh are you bummed Mr. CEO man all because you can only have one private jet instead of five, how sad.

Companies are pathetic. I feel like i've been duped when Ford doesn't want to come out with new concept cars like Hybrids or electric running cars. Instead they want to come out with their new F-150. Right, because that's what I want to see in the middle of an energy crisis. A big $40,000 truck that has a 22 gallon gas tank, let me go ahead and start living on the street so you can maintain your ever so lavish lifestyle.

Anyway, I'm done with that. I have been having EXTREME sensitivity to cold, but for some reason I can't help but wish for snow storms. I'm not so much into the 'holiday spirit' as I am wanting to have to scrape my windows and go running through knee high piles of white dust! Hopefully a nice little snow storm will make it's way to me... one can only hope!

same old same old

everything's the same so far, sometimes life can be boring when there's a lot of shit going on.

it's official!!

well i am officially a married, expecting woman... surprise!! that's what the secret was a few weeks back, entering into my second trimester has been a breeze considering i have had zero morning sickness or cravings. but then again, i have become very angry! so when i say 'elephant' that means get the fuck out the way!!

here are a few pictures i was able to snag from my peeps, more to come i just have to round them up first.

i see you good you forced faker

it's very interesting when there are certain individuals, we will call them vultures, claim to be your friend. in my opinion, a friend looks out for the well being of the one with whom they are be-friend-ed. now to be fair, i understand the different levels of friendship. there are those with whom you see everyday and don't necessarily have the time to hang out with. there are those that live far distances so really that friendship is mainly a friend/internet connection, but still a friendship. but then there are those with whom you frequent their houses and go to dinners with. those in my opinion would be the 'closer' or 'closest' of friends, because you not only speak with them routinely but you also interact with them on many levels. so i find it interesting when they clearly don't give a shit about anything other than themselves. when there are events (such as weddings, parties, etc.) that are pre-planned and pre-committed to attending and decide that not going and not saying that they aren't going would be more appropriate instead. it hurts most because all of that time and effort was lost. it is time that will never be given back, only instead it's time wasted. i think that's the worst feeling in the world, having to realize at the end of the day that the one person you have tried to grow and bond with never cared in the first place and only took advantage of it out of convenience. i guess if i were that alone i might do it too, but them again i have feelings. those with whom i interact with and those with whom i choose to carry on a relationship with are out of seeing a common link or bond, and a general sense of enjoyment. those with whom i interact with touch my life in some way, that's why there are only a select few that i let in. i think that's what hurts the most, giving that other person an idea of who you are and them purposely squashing your hopes and expecatations because there was 'something better' going on. vultures don't make sacrifices.

at the end of the day, come Saturday i will be getting married to the love of my life and starting a family. so i can only say that i hope it will be worth it for the other person to slowly realize what happened--that is if they even care.

"if you see me keep going be a pass by waver."

1 week and 6 days

the countdown starts people!! the bands need to be picked up but we've got our marriage license and I've had my engagement ring cleaned and prepped for the big day. all that's left is next Saturday's bachlorette party and then the wedding. I'm so excited!!

dumbass accountin rules

if there is anyone who knows a thing about accounting, please please please!! help me?

i'm ready to pull my hair out.

secrets are out

so my secret you ask? it's going to be in code... but i have a peanut!! if you know what it is, please don't sell me out... haha there's still a lot of info to share but not until a later date.

in other news, i got up at 6:05, on the dot to write an awful paper that i'm totally ashamed of and my computer came unplugged. the battery on my computer is fried, so anytime the power cord comes out it shuts off. i about had a shit fit! luckily for me, Microsoft Office 2007 saved it and i was able to finish in record time. i always forget how unmotivated i am fall quarter. you would be too having to walk long distances outside when it's cold. winter quarter only gets worse.

anyway, if anyone knows of a good anti-blackhead/anti oil treatment please let me know. my skin is going to hell.

please and thank you!